February 28, 2010

Two choices laid open in the ocean,

I chose to swim with the current.

And that has made all the difference.

School is a very powerful, extremely overpowering current in society and the world. You can either choose to go against it where you have a microscopic chance to become one of the few out of a hundred thousand that make it, without a high school education. >> OR you can swim WITH this current, that you don’t even have suffer by doing. If you choose to swim along the current instead of against it, you don’t even have to put effort into living. When you’re going against the current, not doing anything the school wants you to do, you will be ridiculed and alienated by society, you will have a smaller chance of getting a job, and thus you separate yourself from the flow of the world. But if you choose to swim along with the current by just accepting school, its power, and what it asks of you, life becomes easier. You don’t have to fight against everything and feel terrible everyday.

Just accept school.

Go with the current.

It will make all the difference.


February 27, 2010

Nothing is lost upon a man who is bent upon growth; nothing wasted on one who is always preparing for… life by keeping eyes, mind and heart open to nature, men, books, experience…. What he gathers serves him at unexpected moments in unforeseen ways.”

This is totally something I have experienced before, the way I have lived at least part of my life, and truly brilliant.


February 22, 2010

live simply, think simply, and life will be simple.

Live complicatedly (thinking complicated thoughts), and life, as a result, will become complicated for you.

an insight

February 21, 2010

I’ve played WC3 this whole weekend since John gave it to me friday.

It requires such focused attention that once you stop such a long period of DotA-ing, Time progression slows – Time progresses more slowly.

I should utilize this to make as much use of my time as possible.

I get these thoughts

February 19, 2010

I get these spontaneous thoughts once in a while, of how I really want to do and learn something different, very deeply and intricately and use that knowledge to help people in new ways.

But I must remind myself, if I want to learn something, I have to make sacrifices- regarding pleaseure – hanging out with friends, playing computer, watching movies – in order to truly take strong and confident steps in the pathway towards learning.

Because it is more important for me to study and learn things myself, than be doing random arbitrary new things (because they take a lot of time). If I want to do new things, then they should at least be slightly related to my primary goals in life. I guess I’ve known that. But I should not spend too much time doing new things, if there are other MORE UGRENT and MORE IMPORTANT things to be doing for MYSELF and for MY FUTURE AND EXPECTATIOSN FOR MYSELF AND MY ASPIRATIOSN FOR MYSELF.

-My sole reason for living is to experience life at a deeper (more intuitive and soulful level)

–> and, in consequence,  to come to a deeper understanding of life, myself, the universe, and my role in the Big Picture.

this is the only thing that motivates me, to act, to breathe, to think, to live. If education directly related to how deeply I experienced life and came to a deeper understanding, I would totally be involved in it.

But there are other more efficient ways to come to this level of being.

and the reason it’s such an important end, is not only because it’s important to myself, but it lets me live at my full potential – exploring all corners of life, all the mysteries, and discovering all the infinite possibilities. I guess,. because i know intuitively that the world is infinitely complex, i  yearn to come to as close of an understanding to that infiniteness godlikeness of the universe (as a human possibly can) as I can.

2 main characters in both movies::

-taking pelham 1,2,3, (or soemthing like that)

-from paris with love